I understand y you didnt add me to friendster before. I didnt know that you felt that much in that period of time with him... (yea, i read your friendster blog). I dont know what to feel...truely... I want you so baddly yet i know.... haiz...

You were my main aim in life, without you, life just seemed so dull.... I dont have a reason to live, reason to be strive, reason to happy...

How i wished that there is someone just like you, looks like you, talk like you, smell like you....

Too bad no one like that exist in the world... other then you...

I walk down lanes filled with people and felt so tiny... I'm afraid of being unable to get a job, afraid of hunger, afraid of being useless but there is no one to surpport me, in the way i truely wanted.

I want someone to provide for, to care for, to be loved and so to see that warming smile that can brighten even the darkest clouds


You can say that I'm selfish but there are millions of times I felt like killing "Him", coaxing your family members and to chain you up with me.

But, in the very end, its only one sided.... Would you really love me as much as my love for you? even after so much that had happened?

I promise to wait for you. because I know that..... One day, one fine day that I'll be walking along on a red carpet with church bells ringing, familly and friends cheering for us and I would be holding on to a hand, no other,

Then yours, my dearest LingLing.

{ 10:49 AM }
let's fly across the blue sky