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well...This few days I have been thinking.....rmb the balance I have said before....Well...This time I going to talk abit more on this....Balance....The most common balance is the forces of good and the forces of evil....But I m not going to talk about that...cos I have no idea about that too...LOL...This few days a topic really stuck me....Do I treat my friends better or you better.....I have been thinking about this topic for days and days...And I can't really solve this....You see.....My balance is love and friendship......The balance came down crushing on me darm hard.....One side keep telling me that I zhong se qin you while the other side says I zhong you qin se.....If only I can spilt into 2....Or better yet 3.....everytime I go back home I get LOTS and LOTS of stupid complains....One moment scold me use phone too much...One moment scold me use computer never let youngest sis use....I CANNOT TAKE IT.....THERE IS NO PEACE WHATSOEVER IN MY HOME....I CANNOT TAKE IT....I WANT TIME TO TOTALLY PAUSE FOR ME TO TAKE A LONG REST....Totally.....WHAT M I ...Complaining here....I have no idea what to do now...CANT I JUST KEEP A BALANCE AND HAVE PEACE AT HOME TOO!!....I totally have no idea on what to do now....Totally...I know that both sides have done lots for me.....And I m very glad that I such great lover and friends.....I really don't deserve such great people.....

thank you all for staying by my side....Thank you

{ 10:31 AM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Today is the day I have been waiting for....OUR 2ND MONTH...Wow...So fast 60 days already....But...The stupid thing is that the prefect workshop is on the 22th Nov ...Which is also today...zzz..So I can't really spent time with you....Already we spend one hour together today....BUT.....zzzz...I got something on again on 22th Dec....Which is the sec 1 recruitment....I think I can give that a miss but first thing is that I need someone to take over me...Sorry for not spending time with u today....Sorry...

{ 8:41 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Wow...Its a long time since I wrote my last post....Just 5 more days...5 days...time flew so fast this days...BTW...JUMPSTART PROGRAM OVER!!!...LOL...For those who skip those days.....I have no idea what will happen...LOL...Now total calm and peaceful days ahead.....WARCRAFT WARCRAFT WARCRAFT!!!...LOL.....GUNZ GUNZ GUNZ!!!...woah....LOL... hmm.....A few days ago...My cousins and I met up and had a totally great day...We eat together, watch movie together, walk together, spend money together, joke together.....But....That day kind of dragged abit...Due to two reasons....One....We had no idea where to go so we wasted lots of time thinking....Two...You weren't there...Kind of missed u though out the day.....o well....Maybe I will get a job during the holidays....Many of my friends are finding one so maybe I will too....Maybe I WILL BECOME!!!!...NIGHTSOILER...LOL....Just joking....o well.....I m so happy....Finally I don't need to retype again...LOL

{ 7:28 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky

I have came to notice something strange about me......It seems quite lame and maybe not true.....I have noticed that everytime I do things for people, I would either cause more trouble or something bad will happen after I helped.....The things in the world sometimes just seems so balanced....Like sometimes people have wealth but not health...Or health but not wealth....No matter what u have....There is something u sure don't have....There is happiness yet there is sorrow....There is light yet there is darkness....It just seems that no matter what u gain...There is a lost....Maybe I am too interested in P.O.A...lol....i wonder...Is there anything that can't be balanced?....I really hate causing more trouble to people around me instead of helping.....Maybe there is a 'force' to maintain balance everywhere....Hmm....

{ 9:55 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky

I M BACK!!(BOO!!)....Ok....LOL.....Totally enjoyed the last 8 days...To think that we spent 8 days of sadness and happiness to the total extreme....Watched fireworks together for the first time....Celebrated our first month.....But also nearly lead to brake too....Well...Hardly brought anything to wear....Spent more on water and food items.....sian...So many teachers knows us now....zzz...Well....WE NEVER TAKE NEOPRINT!!!...zzz...Wanted to take at last day but you wanted to spent time with your friends so I guess its ok......To think that the first thing I want to do is to write post...LOL...Thailand was totally great.....Now I started drinking caffeine.....LOL...So well tomorrow die liao....School at 8am!!...zzz...o well...At least can see my other friends again.....Well....Now quite sleepy....So maybe next time I write more about my trip...Well....Now I feel that Singapore is a foreign country...LOL....Better get on track then...LOL

{ 12:04 AM }
let's fly across the blue sky