Bored at 1.45am and dont feel like sleeping yet...
Kinda busy busy busy this few weeks after school started... I dont even have time to do tutorials! (Ok la, i have time but was lasy today, felt like just taking a day break) haha so... yea...
I have been pondering how life truly is... somehow, we always lack of time to do so many things that we are required to do yet shockingly.....! we always complete the task in the end.. lol... saddly sometimes its just being rushed and not really 100% of what you want may appear. Yet strangely, it may even be better then planned... Life's truely a mircle haha.
When i look back what i done in my 18 years of life, i realised that what i did wasnt really much at all! At my age, some already went pubs long time ago... Went countless far far overseas trip... Learnt how to blade.. (Darm! i really going to master that one day! ARHH!) and many many other wonderous stuff that sometimes cant even be imagined....
So many hours of my life devoured by computer games that just drain my life away that i think it already can clock in at least 2 years of my life. How i regret doing nothing but play games over and over again when i could have used the time to do my homework or something. I keep telling myself that i have weak GPA and have to study hard yet the thought of games always fills me up when i have spare time. ARRHH!!!
If only there's a way to stop time like hiro from Heroes. Then i'll just relax in the frozen time until i feel that i'm ready to move on and do something new again. How to catch up with the lost time? i really have no idea. If only there's something to re-inpire me again to work hard!

Haiz, i guess i'm still just another weak-minded boy that requires much motivation to move on haha....

Till then, I"LL DO MY BEST! (I was thinking about hiting another highscore in one of the games on my laptop when i was typing this lol...) DARM COMPUTER GAMES!!! lol...

"I guess my mum's right, my future wife really might be a computer!"

{ 1:47 AM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Ok la, i was back yesterday but then was too tired to blog....

i cant be bothered to write EVERYTHING down so its kinda going to be in short form.

Day 1


















I was quite shocked when my CCA mates bought me cake to celebrate my birthday (it was tomorrow and it was a small cake but i was really touched that they remembered my birthday) and after eating it, we set off from punggol jetty.
Basically, when i stepped into the Base Camp, i was still feeling a little down and uncertain about how the course will be like. It started off fine with a rock climbing activity and I FINALLY REACHED THE TOP!!! (finally!!! lol). And it was quite a day getting to prepare for the big sailing day tomorrow. Slept in bunks! (i didnt know they had bunks!..lol)

Day 2
We started off preparing for the start of our sailing trip. We were aiming to reach a camp site at changi but there was a heavy storm before and caused our start off to be delayed. In the end, we just tried to understand how does cutter sailing works and i can seriously say.... there's alot of stuff to know even in a small boat...lol... So we just sailed around the area and camped off at Base camp 2 instead. Base camp 2 gave me back a few of my old memories as i walked to the toilet (Hey, come on, the toilet is way deep in base camp 2 and we were just "pit-stopping") so it was just a short 'flashback' moment. We then started to choose leaders to start off the journy again and this time, we were going to head straight out and all the way to East Coast Park! (that was around 24+km!!!).

Day 3
We started off quite well, being that we were on time, but we still didnt get how a cutter works so our instructor had to motor-powered us to the changi area. We were quite stunned and had no idea what to do when all of a sudden our instructors ask us to lead ourselves. I was to be the nav leader and i was afraid at first being that i was in quite of a shock and didnt know what to do. It was then I realised that i had to do something and something fast so i kept thinking about the basics that my instructor taught me and led the ship. At first my instructor was angry at me cause i was the leader and was too stunned and blur for too long, but then i managed to convince him (somehow) that my instructions to the crew will be good and right, he allowed me to try again. In the end, we still had to motor power the ship alittle but at least we made it to East Coast Park. The Campsite there was really great and i loved the point where as I can finally bath again! (i didnt bath for day 2, toilets were bad there).

Day 4

We were tasked to reach marina barrage by 1.30pm today without using motor. We started off early and well and reached there at 1pm! We were very happy and glad that we reached our point and we started off heading back to ECP. Suddenly, a huge storm started brewing. I was the captain this time (the Captain is the person that just controls the router and follow advise from the leader). IT WAS AWE-SOME!!!! It felt like we were in a priate boat and the winds were so strong we thought that we might just capsize! The storm kept blowing and blowing and we had to remain in closed hull positions as the winds were strong thus allowing us to fast. Soon enough, it stopped and we celebrated as we reached our back to near our campsite. Our instructor then wanted us to further pratice our sailing skills before we head back. He threw a life buoy over board and we were to retrive it. It was quite easy but then! Something happened! one of us didnt hold his cap well and IT WENT OVERBOARD! so we went on to try and get it back again. It took us ages before we got it back and we went at least 5-6 rounds trying to get it.
Cheered loudly and then went back to campsite. Shocked to find out that we were to over night on the ship..... (there went my chance to bath and sleep in a tent). Was uncomfortable the whole night but I realised that some of us even got very wet as they slept on the deck. I was quite sadded at myself for being unable to do anything/react to the situation.

Day 5
Today will be the last day of sailing, all the way from morning to 4.30pm from ECP back to Base camp 1. The instructors told us that if we didnt make it, we would have to camp at Base camp 2 instead. So we started off around 9am after preparing everything. Strangly, today, there isnt much of any wind at all. We started off rowing (When there's no wind/light wind, rowing is a must unless your instructor decides to on the motor). We rowed and rowed till a point whereas we were going much of no where and were tired so we power-motored all the way to around changi. When we reached changi, THERE WAS STILL NO WIND!!!. We had to row again and this time, its worst. It was around noon and the sun was high up, it was so hot our ship turned salty (as in everything was dry and very warm). Then we started to get a little crazy.... Well it was sort of a good thing being that we started singing all sorts of random songs and it moved the thoughts of rowing away. We enjoyed it and rowed around 5-6kms! Then we saw the other group when we reached around the pular ubin area. It was around 3pm by then and our instructors were saying that we cant make it cos there was around another 5-6kms to travel and wanted us to stop at Base camp 2 but we never stopped. We were so close and we were not going to give up on reaching our main target point so we used the method called "Mind over body" and rushed all the way! Even the winds started to agree with us as they started to blow strongly all of a sudden but we knew that the winds are not enough so we used both sailing and rowing all the way back. After all our hard work, we reached base camp 1 at 4.15pm!!!! Celebrated and rested on the rest of the day.

I'll add in somemore tomorrow, very tired now... lol..

{ 2:07 AM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Like i said before in my previous post, i'm heading off to OBS tmr... its going to be a 9 days camp and it will also mark the last of my activities this holiday (maybe going back to PSS to help ms ng after this but thats not the point.. lol) haha so yea!















Btw, i loved the celebration the TBC (Teh Bing Clique) peeps gave me. Came as a total shock though haha cos i really thought it was for queenie's farewell party or something like that. haha. To think that i thought maybe this year my birthday will not be celebrated so its totally way cool. Thanks a lot you all! (btw the pictures are way cool too haha)

{ 5:05 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Haiz, these days, i really do too much without thinking, i'm now doing too much stuff from now till 7th and then from 10th to 18th, the choices i made these days are totally retarded, i going to miss many many stuff that i could have be going to do yet i cant anymore. Even the one event i wanted most.... but still.. i guess... sometimes, we humans just have to live with the choices we made, even through it can be truly bad, pointless, or even the "I have no idea WTF is going on and i'm wasting too much money!" thought but yet.. i guess... i just hope somehow i can be able to still have fun regardless of my choices... MAN! WHY THE F*** DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO HAPPEN AT THE SAME TIMES!!!! CANT I JUST HAVE MORE DAYS IN EARLY SEPT!!!"

Yet, like I said, "We must honor the promise we made and keep our words, if not, we're just like bad debts, everyone will just strike you off"

Haiz, this shall be the lesson i shall learn from "Moving with the flow without using brains" and i only have no one else but myself to blame for such stuff i guess

{ 12:08 AM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Printer broke down, have to wait tmr when i go to school to print myself. (Too may pratice papers, dont want to trouble others lol) Hmm, well,FIT and COST are going well i guess. Decided that i'll not study for until 2 days before the exam day due to "Prolong periods cause super boredom resulting in emptyness in brain" (Well this only applies to me arh! dont you all stop studing cause of this line.. LOL just joking haha). Yup yup, haha, these days... STARTING TO DROP HAIR NIA! (well and get sick too but...DROP HAIR!!) MAN, if only males can forward their whole life's hairloss to the day before entry to NS. Woah that would be cool haha. Hmm, i was proved right again that i cant study at home (Yup, didnt study AT ALL! today) totally regreted not going school to study today man.. but nvm haha

"For life is always filled with regrets, but men have to accept it that it happens and we just have to move on."

haha yup, going to apply that for this phraze of life haha..

Man, i think i'm sick and tired of trying to look good (Trying always fail haha) so i'm just going to be like the old times, as long as i'm comfortable, i dont care anymore then that haha! (Ok maybe feeling good days and presentation days i'll still try lol.. )

{ 5:47 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky

Arh.. here we go again.. exams period... really sian. Alike last sem, i still cant find the motivation to study! haiz.. i guess i'll just keep on trying to study without a aim i guess.. (Maybe i'll turn into somekind of study zombie that goes like, "Boooooookkkkssss! Paaaaaperrrrsssss!"). But if only i can be that way i guess... i'm slacking at home everyday. I kept telling myself, "study dude!", but i always end up with empty snacks packs and drinks packets.. lol... hmm, well.. i guess i just cant be forced to study (I think i learn much better during non-exams periods) but there isnt much choice right? haha... ok at least i'm studying everytime i go to school, so i decided that i'll go to school and study everyday from now (even though half of my energy gets drained on the trip there)..

haha long time never emo-ly express myself here le. i guess my friends are right, this is purely a emo blog.. LOL!

btw, note to self, must live to my words and be smiling everyday from now, life is just way boring being sad.

and! i shall learn many other random stuff after my hoildays! or try to at least. There isnt much youth left lol.

{ 5:23 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky

你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱 我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

{ 10:00 PM }
let's fly across the blue sky